Light.

Light glorifies everything. It transforms and ennobles the most commonplace and ordinary subjects. The object is nothing, light is everything.

Leonard Missone

LOVE these! I love learning in my passion!

Flickers of Hope

This week has been good. Me and Scott have been doing much better. I'm getting a little more hopeful every day. Our counselor suggested we write a list of our "Landmines" and talk about it. We must have talked for hours today. No fighting, just talking. He was so sweet. Held my hand and kissed my cheek. There is a reason I fell so hard for him in the first place, and I'm starting to understand why that was again. He is so caring and dedicated and willing to work on anything and everything he needs to.
It is going to be okay. I see that.
God has a plan and sometimes I forget he does. All hope is not lost.

And she loves him. She loves him oh-so-much. :)

Hurting.

I don't think he realizes how much I'm hurting right now.

I cry.

I scream.

I hide the truth from my little girl.

We're trying to work on things. He complains, I don't say anything, we fight. 

I hide in my room and smile for her, laugh for her, play with her.

But when she's asleep it all comes out. 

She goes in her swing and I go into the shower and let it all out. 

I stay in there sometimes for hours while she's sleeping.

Just crying.

Sitting on the shower floor with my head in my knees, crying.

It doesn't go away, it lingers.

I feel like this constantly, every day.

We're doing better but I'm feeling worse.

I feel like I'm going down...

down...

down...

and I'm not getting better.

Nothing is helping.

I don't think anything will.

At least she doesn't see it. And he doesn't notice. 

Homemade Baby Food!

I tried something new today and I'm very pleased with the outcome. Homemade avocado baby food. Organic and has no coloring, additives, or preservatives. Completely fresh and healthy. I've made a step-by-step for how I did it in case anyone wants it!

Makes almost a week's worth of fresh avocado.

And the Final Product:

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, super busy but will resume soon!

Sickly and a Crazy Baby.

My daughter makes me giggle. Currently she is sitting next to me wiggling and laughing at her toes.
She is four months old as of the 21st and the happiest, craziest, wiggliest little thing.
Just the other day she was in her jumper and turned ALL the way around by herself! I was so proud.
How can someone so small take your entire heart by storm? It's not fair. Loving someone so little to death just... I don't know. I adore being a Mommy. She's the best baby.

On another note, I'm very sick. I don't know what it is but I have a stuffed nose, headache, sore throat, and these God awful canker sores in my mouth that I want to rip out with a scissors. Ugh. So I've embarked on another project:

Mom Comics.

They are comics starring me and my daughter made just for Moms!
Here are a few:

We are on Instagram and Facebook:

IG: momcomics

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/pages/MomComics/531423966908274

Project Perspective

I've decided I need a change of perspective. 

I birthed a project that will be finished in about 

a month or so named:

Project Perspective.

It's a little secret right now, but I will be

posting the model pictures on my

Facebook page.

 

This is Ava Nicole. Her view on the

world is:

"You need to play before you're old."

Ava is seven years old.

Now remember these are just a taste of what will come. It's exciting!

Retouching... AHHH

I love my photography, trust me I do. Sometimes retouching takes FOREVER and I never seem to get a picture right no matter what I do.These are the newest ones from the most recent Valentine's shoot I did. The couple was amazing to work with and so adorable. The pictures are all perfect but I can never seem to get them "right."

Take this picture, for example. I love the black and white but for some reason I still don't feel like it's finished. I feel like there should be a heavy vignette and some color splash. Now I realize this is a beautiful moment with the perfect edit for the picture, but I never feel done. It's so frustrating sometimes because I want my work to be good and I want people to love the pictures they get from me.

 Or this one. I still feel like there should be bokeh hearts or something in the background, but it's beautiful. I love their faces, the smiles, the joy radiating from them. You can just tell they love each other. I still adore this shot, but I would overedit if I didn't stop myself.

And this one is my favorite so far. The blue on the wall is so pretty. I also love her smile. Still so cute.






I just feel like I'm underediting. Ahhh... The joys of being a new professional.